Ms. Cranky-pants

Oh, I am SO cranky today. I was almost in tears earlier, and for no particular reason. I was just....mad. The boys wouldn't listen, sweetie was on the internet, and grandma was trying to talk to me from the other room. I just wanted to freakin' scream!

I felt yucky today. I've decided that the baby doesn't like soda, so I get sick when I drink it. Not like puking, but just really queasy and all around gross feeling. So, I drank about 3 bottles of water today, and some gatorade, and I feel better. I love soda though. I live on Pepsi. However, I guess I'll be staying away from it until this little booger makes her appearance.

Sweetie is totally convinced it's twins. I just can't wrap my brain around that idea. I mean, it would be so neat, but am I ready for that? Probably not. I would be so....so....umm...well, shocked. I would be beside myself. I mean, I would probably be thrilled once that shock wore off, but my fear is that the shock wouldn't wear off for a long while. Lord, give me strength.

So, did I tell ya sweetie would hate the names I picked out? Well, he does. Absolutely hates them. Well, not ALL of them. He likes Benjamin. Only because that's Uncle Ben's name. Every other name I picked out, he hated. He doesn't even care for Hannah, but I told him that was non-negotiable. So, I asked him what name he would like. He likes Jasmine. He has always liked that name, and I knew that. So, for now, if it's ONE baby, and it's a GIRL, I think her name will be Hannah Jasmine. Of course, I'll call her Hannah, and he'll call her Jazzy. Now, as for a boy, (Lord, please let it be a girl!), his name would be Matthew Benjamin. I really like the names switched, but my nephews name is Reuben, and we call him Ben, so that's reason for the order of the names. We'd probably call him Matt. Not sure though. Matt is the name of one of our best buds that was murdered, and his wife Kristin is still our best bud. We don't talk much, but she and her b-boy are always close to our hearts and in our prayers. Before we name a child Matthew, I'll have to have her blessing. I would never want to do anything like that without making sure it was ok first.

So, now that sweetie thinks it's twins, I may have to trade in my awesome pickup for a minivan. Not such a bad deal, since I'm totally the soccer mom type, but money makes me regress into the fetal position and want to suck my thumb. I hate to get into loan contracts. I hate to owe someone payments forever. And what's worse, I HATE to think about the rollover from my current loan to a new one. I was 10-grand upside down in my last car, so the current loan is very steep and induces regret and anger in myself and sweetie. So, thinking about doing it again is just ludicrus.

I guess that's all for today. I am so tired. My crankiness it starting to get to me, and of course, I can't take medication for it because I'm pregnant. Yipee for me, bring on the hormones.